You said you wanted to introduce me to him

for my job because he takes picture.

But I started other shooting work

so you said you thought

I started to join other shooting job 

in earlier 2020

because I was lonely while holidays 2019

so I planed that by using that holidays

because I thought if I work more hard and attend to more good things or produce a result, 

I can be join next holidays and friends.

So I expressed my loneliness to you 

by my other efforts instead of saying 

“ I am lonely “ directly to you

Because I cannot say “ I am lonely “....