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Dear his friend, Y chan .
On Xmas - NewYear of 2019,
I tried to go to TIEC
- because he posted like
He is in Japan🇯🇵, Not Russia🇷🇺
but I did not go.
Because if his words was true,
I loose his trust and I will never forgive myself who doubted him even once
私が真実を知ってから、まだ一度も話し合いすらできていません。
彼は私にとって初めてできた彼で、唯一の家族みたいな人で、２年間、全身全霊で１００%信頼していました。
I “never” stalk him.
EVERYTHING is his lie.
I was just his partner for 2 years.
And he is my first love and first family, first partner of my life.
But he got angry at me without any reason 3/21 2021, so before his graduation
After very long time,
I knew that “顔慈慧” さん came to his room since 3/24 2021 .
It was just his convenience and
No way…….,,,,, he had one more another partner in the
Complete “ same “ 2 years as us
2019 - 2021
We couldn’t spend count down and Xmas 2019
Because he went to Russia to meet his family and mother
And I spent my Xmas and Count down at home alone, and I made hand craft and hand made New year’s gift for Victor san at home
( I definitely did not meet other boy for 2 years, because I did not wanted make him sad .
even on Xmas and New year, I did not join to other party )
But,
He went to Russia on our Xmas and Count down was a lie.
He had one more another partner and he was together with Gan-Jie san at Xmas party with friends.
I never doubted him even once for 2 years and, I never even thought about truth like this.
Because he said
“ I am single “
Clearly
when we started our relationship and talked about relationship.
I knew his truth is 2021, 5月。
He got angry at me without any reason was 2021, 3月。
I sent friend request to you and his close friend in 3月,
Because I did not know his truth and I couldn’t understand his strange mood and
His sudden changing of mood and attitude to me.
- refused all of talking and meeting suddenly before 3/24.
We celebrated our anniversary and White-Day (3/14) , and we were talking and planning to meet on his graduation ceremony.
I made cookies and celebration card, and reserved flower bouquet and washing my one-peace (cloths) for important day.
But he got angry without any reason and suddenly he changed our plan.
I could not understand, “ what is happening “ in our life at all.
So I sent friend request to you and his close friend in 2021 3月。
There was no other way and I came to scared of his lie of 2 years that I never assumed
Few friends asked to him
“ who is that girl ? “
And he created lie story about me that
“ bad / strange girl who is stalking him “
I never stalked him.
I never committed any strange thing for 2 years even once.
EVERYTHING is his lie.
Gan-Jie san believed his lie and refused all of discussion in 3 person. (Before he makes this lie, she tried to talk to me in 3 person)
And he says “ Everything was lie for 2 years “ .
No, way . . . . ,
I know everything.
His eyes, his smile, his love, Everything was not a fake, certainly.
Always time has stopped in silence when he hugged me.
He is my first love and first partner. So first close person.
He just taught me always that how much wonderful & warm love is.
It was not a fake like he says.
In past, I have experience to be bulled as “ I am stalker “
← that is complete lie and paparazzi used this gossip for money.
To delete this gossip, I needed a lot of money to ask lawyer for paparazzi’s company but I could not pay all, and fake gossip is remaining yet.
Victor san used this gossip so badly and evil way .
People and Jie san believed his lie soon.
You, also blocked me in spring of 2021
This bulling took even my right for fair discussion and treated from people as humanely .
His friends thought I am bad/strange girl who is stalking him.
Even while I was in the abysm agony for betray of only family and loosing the most important person.
I really need the right opportunity with she or him to have the fair discussion or something.
After I knew his truth, we couldn’t even have talk once yet.
For this 500days - 12000hours after I knew his truth and he made lie about me, I never could remember the beauty in life.
No eat, only water,
No sleep and wake up soon with bad dream or his dream.
I never could go out from bed room and wake up.
My daily place’s people worried about me because I disappeared for 500days suddenly.
Even though I told them “ I will come again soon, or tomorrow! 🌸 ”
I want the fair opportunity or at least proper talk while I live.
If you have any way to contact him, please help to bring this situation to the right way as human morality.
I hope your wonderful trips in your life.
Ayaka
。
。
今日、美術館に行ったんだけど。
食べてないし、動けなかったから、
身体がつらくて美術館で立っていることできなかった。
知らない間に、身体がこんなに弱ってるんだってショックだった。
あと、やっぱり私は美術が好き。
絵を見てる間、
人の心を感じて涙が止まらなかった。
＊
卒業式の日、学校で逢う約束を
ずっと楽しみに準備してた。
＊
私が真実を知ってから
まだ一度も、目をみて謝ることすら
できていないことを知っていますか。
二年間も、嘘を吐き続けていたのに
私が真実を知る前 (一年前の3月) は
話し合いすらしてもらえなくて
私が真実を知った後 (一年前の5月) は
電話一本で済まされて
100%、一方的で突然で
強制で
私の意見は 0% で
共に歩む人と人が人生の分岐点に立つのに、
一度もまともな話し合いができないなんて
人として正しい道ですか。
まだ一度も、逢って謝ることも
話し合いすらしていないことを
分かっていますか。
ただそれだけを待ち続けて
５００日を失った私の人生は
もう戻ってこない。
＊
私の心はまだ、２８歳の２月なのに
周りの人だけ月日が過ぎて
私は動けないまま時を失うのが一番苦しい。
まだ２０代で、やりたいことも、
行きたい場所もいっぱいあったのに
何もできないまま、
ほとんど１日も動けないまま
終わってしまうなんて・・・
この１２０００時間
ただ苦しむことしか、してない。
.
He said creepy .
ー About my birthday collage ,
after March 2021
I made it in 12/24 2019, because I was too lonely in our first Christmas at home alone.
But I couldn't passed it in 2019 and 2020,
because I thought maybe it is too early to celebrate his birthday with collage card in 1st year, and I was not sure it is able to make him happy or not.
If you did not go to Russia on our first Christmas Day and spending Holidays together , I did not make it Anyway .
Why I shouldn’t even love someone ?
My love is creepy ?
I am horrible ?
Why I am not permitted even to feel love ?
Why I shouldn’t have made collage card for my important partner ?
Why I shouldn’t do anything like other girls
I am scared to feel anything to anyone
。
あのころ
よく行ってたお馴染みの店にね
久しぶりに行ったら
お久しぶりですね
すごく心配してました
「一年4ヶ月ぶりです」って
またすぐ行こうって思ってたのに
どうして500日も過ぎてたの
大丈夫でしたか？どうしてましたか？
って言ってくれて
何も答えられなくて
去年の夏、
別のお店でも
「大丈夫でした！？」
「半年ぶりくらいです！」
「心配してましたよ」
って。。
2020年は毎日行ってたから・・・。
食べれないことや
眠れないことや
身体が弱ることも
もちろん辛いけど、、
大好きだったこと
いつも楽しみにしてたこと
小さな幸せが全て止まったまま
自分の意志じゃないのに
身体だけが時間を失うのが
一番かなしい
去年の3月
一年間、動けなくて苦しむ前に
終わってたら良かったのに
パートナーの浮気とか
「彼と別れた〜」とか
「好き」「嫌い」とか
そんなことじゃない。
生まれて初めて信じた人
2年間、世界で唯一の家族みたいで
100%信頼しつづけた人が
ある日突然、
急にナイフみたいな嘘を言うようになって
昨日まで言っていたことが
急に真逆になったり、
「怖かったから」とか
「覚えてない」とか
「全部、演技だった」とか
信じられないような嘘まで作りはじめて
いつの間にか
彩香が「悪い人」「変な人」
みたいな話がつくられていて。
浮気に対する悲しみとか
家族を失う悲しみとか
それを感じる暇もないくらい
“ 真の信頼 ”
を裏切られる痛みが何より大きくて。
500日も動けないのは
「失う痛み」じゃなくて
17000時間の真の信頼が
彼を幸せにしたいって優先してた心が
嘘という刃で裏切られると同時に、
「彼の罪」ではなく
「彩香が悪い人」って
彼の罪を私が背負っている形で
500日間を生きるのが重くて。
Dear his friends
Now I am writing to you because
I heard from his friend that he was telling many many people that
“ I am his stalker who is bothering him “
I NEVER stalked him.
I NEVER bothered him.
We were just peaceful and happy couple for 2 years since 2019 - until I new he had one more another women in the complete same 2 years since 2019, in this May.
I was asking people to know his true reason for his sudden changing of mood, because he got angry at me without any reason in this spring - when I asked about Christmas.
He said to me
“ thinking about Christmas Is Childish ! ! “
( This is our conversation with 顏慈慧san ( one more another women in the complete same 2 years as us )‘s best friend.
She taught to me his truth in this May. )
Our Anniversary year was also same.
( since 2019- )
He was teaching as “ex girl friend” to both of she and me.
孟君san ( her best friend ) taught me that they never broke up even once, in the same 2 years of us.
His “ I am single” was a lie.
I never doubted his words even once for 2 years.
I NEVER stalked him.
I was just asking people on Facebook in this spring, because I didn’t know his truth and I just wanted to know his essential reason of his changing of mood.
If you understand,
Please, please remove your and people’s blocking to me.
I did NOT ANY bad thing to him even once for 2 years
We started our relationship officially 2 years ago since 2019 with formal proposal.
At the most earlier timing of this proposal, he told me
" I am single " clearly,
- I certainly remember it because he put accent on this part.
He is my first partner and first love of my life, And I never doubted his words for 2 years even once.
( When I consulted that I am First-time, he said “ I will really care about you “ to me )
I was believing him 100% always for 2 years.
I never even thought of his lie, until I hear about his truth in this May from 孟君san On Facebook.
I was just asking people to know that
“ What is happening in our life actually? “
After he got angry at me, I feel like my body is cutting into half so no eat, only water and no sleep I wake up in few minutes with his dream with tears flood.
So I just wanted to know about true reason
I never stalked him.
I was just asking people on Facebook.
Please understand.
I am writing all of our life in my diary :
I never stalked him.
I never did any bad thing to him.
I was just his partner who is believing him while we are peaceful for 2 years.
Please understand.
And Please remove your blocking.
I am not doing ANYTHING bad about him.
( new year of 2021 )
( new year of 2020 )
( Christmas of 2019 )
.
First I should make clear that
“ I NEVER STALKED HIM. “
.
.
In 2021.3.16
he called police as I am stalker.
In his room, I was asking him to show me your passport or iPhone picture to prove that you were in Russia on 2019’s Christmas to New year.
I never checked about it because I was believing in him, but I asked for the first time after 2 years because his mood was too unnatural in this Spring.
But finally he didn’t show me anything.
And he showed to got angry at me, and instructed to leave his room soon now in few minute.
He instructed to me to call Uber taxi by myself, but I did not.
And after that he said he will call taxi.
But I didn’t leave his room.
His mood was too unnatural ever.
I came to scared his lie and wanted to check it clearly at there.
He said, “ If you will not ride this taxi ( he called ), Next I will call police . “
I did not hear him.
I am too stubborn.
And Actually he called police, he said on call “ my stalker in my room and don’t leave “ .
I did not escape .
( 2 years ago ① )
( 2 years ago ② )
( 2 years ago ③ )
Could you believe ?
Even the same week, we were meeting constantly in our room.
Just 2,3days ago, he came to my room and spend, and he agreed to pass flower and decided to meet at UTokyo on next week because 3/18 is his graduation.
It was really special event from 2 years ago and I reserved flower bouquet and cleaning shop for celebration. (we often talked about his graduation in 2 years)
Could you believe, Again ? ?
Even we talked and decided about graduation ceremony in the same week 【2021/3/14】,
He called police 【2021/03/16】,
And he suddenly sent me text
“ don’t get close my room “
On 【2021/ 03/ 21 】
After many months,
I knew that Gan Jie san came in his room
【 2021/03/24 】
？？？ Only 2 days ago he changed 。
Until I hear about Jie san from her best friend in this May,
Of course I never think, No way . . . , , 【3/24】some another women will come to his room .
So, my mind was full of questions
【 What is his sudden change like this ? 】
Could you believe Again Again,
in February we are no change anything in our room and good relationship too,
and he said “ Next time “ to something, and “ Someday “ he want to do something ,,, so I mean,
“ Next time “
“ Someday “
It was unable to look that he was thinking to change our relationship soon.
There is many words to imagine future,
And he was so active to me ever
Even though We talked and decided about his graduation ceremony at UTokyo in 【3/14】(and white day did.)
He got angry at me suddenly at 【3/16】and called police in his room .
And Graduation Ceremony was 【3/18】.
He wrote sudden message to me “ don’t come his room “ on 【3/21】
And Jie Gan san came his room was 【3/24】
What is this constant schedule ?
He got angry at me in his room and call police 【3/16】was his plan . . ?
Because graduation ceremony will come 【3/18】. . ?
And Because Jie Gan san will come 【3/24】 . . . . ?
Until he called police suddenly 【3/16】, We never had problem or quarrel even once,
and always he says “ I like you Ayaka ” ,
“ you are so beautiful “ , “ I miss you “ , “ I’m happy to be with you ” , “ can’t wait to see you “ . . . . . , we celebrated our Anniversary by his idea and he watches me with his warm loving eyes for 2 years as always .
Of course I never did any stalker business to him for 2 years because I am not stalker .
We build just healthy relationship for 2 years.
.
.
.
【3/16】、I was too sad and shock and cried a lot about police at home.
I couldn’t understand at all, why he suddenly got angry at me and called police.
I used Facebook and asked question to friends to know his essential reason.
I was just asking people on Facebook , because his sudden change and angry of 【3/16】was too strange.
There is Paparazzi’s Fake Article of “ stalker ” (2018) .
Because I went to 60 years old man’s house = concert hall - who committed sexual outrage in Film Festival when I was 20 years old - and to many, many ( over 42 women ) young Asian women.
And Victor san used this information badly.
Police believed his story and They attended to me even though I did not anything.
〜＊ About 60 years old man ＊〜
【and Paparazzi’s Article】
On 2017,
paparazzi wrote fake article of “ stalker ”
because
I went to
“ 60 years old’s man’s house directly ” .
Paparazzi wrote about me
“ Actress was Stalker !! ”
Even though I NEVER had boyfriend in my life,
paparazzi wrote like I was stalker
for “romance”.
And paparazzi wrote like
“ Maybe he was ex boyfriend of mine ? ? ”
” Maybe he is young actor
who I met in the same movie ? ? ”
But these are also complete FAKE text.
- I NEVER had boyfriend .
- And he is 60 years old man .
- And he is 60 years old man .
It’s NOT romantic relationship with 60years old man - actor’s father - who tried to outrage.
He already has Actor children, there is NO REASON to Stalk to 60 years old man for romance
NPO and Lawyer people said to me,
I can sue this paparazzi and I can win.
And they said I can delete this fake article and defamations soon .
but when I requested estimate (見積もり) ,
I knew that I need 40万円 / 1 page.
There was too many defamations pages,
so 何百万円 I need for all defamations page delate ?
So, I did not ask to delete, and fake Articles and defamations page are remaining .
Even now, every time when I think about defamations page and Article, I come to want to disappear.
He says to her
“ There is only Jie for 2 years ”
“ Ayaka is just stalker ”
no, way . . .
Why, he can commit such a evil lies
like knife ?
If there is paparazzi’s strange article,
I cannot even have normal first love ?
.
Jie san decided to believe his lie.
And she blocked me
.
If I was her or in her ( Jie san’s ) situation,
At first I worry about other’s situation and
would like to have a talk sincerely
with Jie san than anyone for sure.
Because always I would like to think about
people who is in the most weak position first.
It’s hard to understand
Why she blocked me instead of him
who commits all of these injustices
I know everything
He was not a fake for 2 years.
I know everything
His eyes , his love , his warmth ,
Everything was not a fake .
Always time has stopped in silence
when he hugged me.
Always we laughed for
his strange idea or my words
I know everything was not a fake .
Even after his mood became strange last spring ,
He was saying
“ I like you, I like you Ayaka .
I’ve No change anything . ”
. . .
孟君さん who taught me truth and
worry about me and gave me kind words,
also blocked me at the same time
If I could pay ¥400000 / 1 page
and deleted fake articles in 2018,
His friends did not blocked me and
everyone did not believe his lie and
At least I could have equal opportunity ?
‘
Definitely I never judged about him for 2 years
- because I don’t judge about relatives.
Definitely I never met with another boy
for 2 years when they invited me
- because if he knew it, he feel sad.
These are 当たり前のこと
when we think of someone importantly .
This is Base as human
you do not think so ?
But he was always judging 2 women
to choose better one ?
Comparing for better one ?
If it was not,
Why he hided and lied to both of she and me ?
He should say at the most earlier timing to me
“ I HAVE GIRL FRIEND AND
WE CANNOT BE LOVERS . ”
And I never meet him in a relationship after.
.
Or if he really wanted to start
relationship with me,
he should have consultation with Jie san
about relationship that
he is dating with me,
and after fix discuss for break up,
we should start this relationship.
“ I am single “ from hisself is outrageous,
「あー、僕は、
ブレイクアップしましたー。」
Was what .
if I was Jie san’s side and he was saying like that to other women,
How much feel Sad.
Why ,He cannot imagine Jie san’s feeling ?
and me.
*
After we talked about relationship and started our relationship in his room,
We hugged.
At that Hug , I cried .
Because it was the first time to be girlfriend and boyfriend in my life,
and he is the first person that I can feel right from bottom of my heart。
He said to me worryingly
「なんで〜？」(泣くの？)
ー That voice and action was really really sweet to me.
And I said,
「幸せで。。」
And he ゆっくり頷きました。
with sweet smile.
——
It was really beautiful moment in our earlier memory.
But under this situation,
it changes 180° completely
What he was feeling,
What he was thinking
when he sees my happy tears ?
That happy face of his was ? ?
He should break up with her before that,
Or he should not start relationship with me
On Xmas - NewYear of 2019,
I tried to go to TIEC
- because he posted like
he is in Japan🇯🇵, Not Russia🇷🇺
but I did not go.
Because if his words was true,
I loose his trust and I will never forgive myself
who doubted him even once
I was writing message to people and posting this blog because he called police in his room as “ I am his stalker ” at 3/16 2021 even though I did not anything .
I was just his partner but he got angry suddenly in his room.
One more another partner (顔慈慧さん) comes from 3/24 2021 .
It was just his convenience .
He tried to make me as criminal for his convenience even though I did not anything at that day
I couldn’t even say that,
because I was in pain even to say
孟君さん、
Somyさん、
慈慧さんは、「彼(Victor)に謝らせます」ってメッセージをくれたあと、とつぜん連絡をくれなくなってしまいました。理由がわかりますか。
その後３人で話すことも、慈慧さんと話すこともできていません。もちろん、謝らせることもしてくれていません。
なんども、なんども伝えていますが、彼の言っていることは全部、大嘘です。
私は、私の人生で一度も、自分の好きな気持ちを誰かに押し付けた事なんかありません。
好き・嫌いの問題じゃなくて、明らかにおかしいことが起きたとき、見て見ぬふりができないだけです。
大切な人や、好きな人だったらいつも幸せでいてほしいし、自分の気持ちを優先しようなんて絶対思いませんよね。私もそうです。でも、酷い不正があったなら話は全く別です。
.
“ And I just wish . . . ,
a person who creates beauty reads heart
And watch truth . ”